Brief Update

Hey All, this is just a brief update whilst I convince my sleepy butt it really does need to shower between jobs today and that yes a new black t shirt is a reward for showering.

Uni results - still waiting, but didn't fail Japanese, which is important. basically the only unit this semester it turns out I had to do and I would have cried if I failed it and had to spend another semester with my Japanese teachers from hell.

Work - I'm on uni break now, so I've picked up a christmas casual job. So far (two shifts in:P) it's okay. It's just a retail job so it's nothing terribly exciting or special. For example, today I spent three hours putting new price stickers on things. It's retail. But my colleagues are lovely which is nice.

Tori - Tori was wonderful, although it was an accoustic concert, which I don't like as much as when she has the band. Mostly she played Earthquakes and Scarlett and the older things and it made me happy. I was so happy when she played Silent all These Years and Leather. They are songs that make me happy in some deep and silly way.

Knitting - the Christmas knitting continues. So far I have a hat and a pair of gloves requiring buttons sewn on. I have one mostly finished pair of gloves for a friends birthday in early december, which should get done tonight. I have 3 pairs of partially knit gloves and a partially knit shawl. And if i have time I want to knit Nana the Yarn Harlot's Pretty Thing, but failing that, I will buy her yarn and the pattern. I have about two weeks to figure out which I'm doing though. I also made a choker a week or two back, and plan to post the pattern for that soon.

Life, the universe and everything else - continues. I'm doing pretty well. Keeping busy, bumbling about and being me. I am in the process of cleaning out my room and applying for JET program. And I'm going to my Dad's for the weekend which will be interesting.

There will be photos.

Coffee for Two

It has been a month. And I am okay for the most part. He decided to be very uncivil in the end for whatever reason, and I have to some extent made my peace with that. I'm not angry, but at this point in time, I don't really wish him the best either. Mostly I just wish he stays somewhere away from me. Which is okay. I'm doing okay, emotionally. I just keep going and manage not to feel too sad or lonely most of the time. I am completely and utterly exhausted though, and I think that helps, because I'm struggling to focus on anything much for long periods of time, which includes being aware of how I'm actually feeling. I get the odd pang when I go to do things I am used to doing with him. On Fridays before we work, I would usually make coffee for both of us. Before work, when I was tired and pre Friday afternoon coffee I was on autopilot and then had two cups of coffee. That made me a little sad. But I drank both cups and went to work and put on my happy face and did what I had to do.
I am re learning myself. It's been a while since I really had to know who I am, so it's interesting re- discovering this. I'm finding that I enjoy spending time with my friends and that I have a tendency to forget my phone exists. I don't like driving, but I like being places. I like coming home from work at the end of the day and taking my socks and bra off and getting a cold drink and just sitting in peace. I don't like a lot of noise. Not even music I like. It distracts me from whatever I'm thinking or doing.
I am finding my creativity is coming back as well. I noticed vaguely that it disappeared and that it was becoming hard to even mod patterns I was using, let alone come up with my own designs. For someone that used to be constantly drawing and designing, even if not actually making, that was challenging. It was frustrating and making me doubt myself even more. But in the last month, the ideas are coming back and they are coming faster than I can knit them. It's exciting. I'm drawing and writing and labelling everything. I keep casting on and swatching and playing. After exams and after Tori, I am going to buy some really soft, thick, squishy royal blue yarn and start working on the reversible cable scarf that I have been swatching for.

Hoo Hoot!

Well, recently I've been doing a lot of designing, and thought I would share one of my designs with you all. It's a set of gloves with cables like owls on it ^^. Anyway, click here to download a PDF of the pattern.

I want

I want someone who makes me coffee in the morning and remembers that i like not quite two sugars and that i have zymil rather than regular milk so i don't get an upset stomach, I want someone who remembers I don't have sugar in a soy latte, in fact that it's a soy latte I drink when I'm out. I want someone that will run me a hot bath and fill the bath with candles and bring me a cold glass of wine and sit in the bathroom and just be with me. I want someone who doesn't need asked or reminded all of the time. I want time. Time to knit, time to sleep, time to relax, time to just sit quietly on my own without stressing about uni or work. I want perfect hair when I get up and not to look pale and drawn in the morning and for most of the day in fact. I want the energy to spend with my friends so they know how important they are in my life. I want someone that doesn't expect so much from me, that get's that sometimes I just want to sit quietly and do my own thing while they do theirs without having to touch.

Move

Well I've moved back in with Mum's because of Year In Japan. I got Tokyo U of Foreign Studies (TUFS) and need to really start saving and it's easier to do when I'm not constantly having to spend money. So at the moment, I'm sitting in the middle of a huge mess not being quite sure where to start. Mostly I think I need to find my bed so I can sit and study for tomorrow's exams. I have both my written and oral Korean exams tomorrow, which I'm not looking forward to, but it means that I don't need to worry about studying for 2 sets of Korean exams within a month.
There still hasnt been much knitting. I started designing a pair of socks with some yarn a friend gave me for my birthday, but I'm six rows into the leg. I hope it works, so far it looks really pretty. I finished Boy's birthday socks, almost a month late, and have resumed work on the 2 ply lace scarf for Rachel's birthday (more late than I care to admit to). But for the most part, life revolves around study.

Some days

Some days I realise how dopey I am. I got in with the intention of going through my Jap vocab whilst I ate lunch. Instead I ate cold pasta and read about a squirrel who photo bombed,

Why I bought a Mac and other things

Wow, it's been almost two months since I last blogged, which is kind of embarrassing, but never mind. Well since then, I've bought a mac book, which I'm using to write this blog post. I've been having sagas with my old laptop, because it is a piece of crap. All i can say is NEVER BUY MEDION. So since about 4 months after I bought my laptop, it started spitting screws at me and driving me insane. And between now and then, a panel fell of the back and if you move the screen too far back the whole laptop freaks out and turns off. It really sucks. And I bet you're sitting there thinking why don't you go and get it fixed, its still under warranty right? Well I tried. There was a couple of weeks of emails and phone calls back and forth. To which they concluded that "It can't be the laptop, you must have dropped it. Medion's don't break". That is exactly what the Tech guy said. I was horrified and flabbaghasted and annoyed. At this point we've more or less given up trying to get them to fix it. At this point I'm going see how much it will cost to get looked at to find out how much it will cost to get fixed, and from there will make the decsion whether or not to sell it on Ebay the way it is or if it's worth getting it fixed and selling it from there. So my solution to this whole mess was to buy a new laptop. Now this might seem excessive, but part of it was that regardless of this laptop completely dying, I was getting to a point where I needed a smaller laptop for uni. But the real point of this rant is not that i bought a Mac and i'm madly in love with it, but THAT MEDION SUCK. They have no customer service and their product never really worked right from the get go.

Anyway, from here I have a few things to talk about ^^

1. Wash Sweater and Cashmere
Well work on the Wash Sweater continues. I'm yet to take any photos (but we all know I suck at the photo thing, it's hard for me), but i've finished the back and the front and am 40 rows into the pattern on the first sleeve. It's very exciting and I'm really enjoying it again. The last sort of 20 rows before the shapping on the front, it was starting to really get to me, and i was getting itchy to start two million other things, but other than doing the first half of the leg of a monkey sock, finishing a moslty done scarf (3 hrs work), and a few rows of a second scarf, I've done fairly well. Especially given my habbit of working on a million things. I also found Knitter's Addiction and their delicious cashmere. They had a 30% off sale, so I bought 2 balls of it for Boy to knit him a scarf (the scarf I've done a few rows of) and it's wonderful and soft and squishy and delicious. So, when I found out a friend's 21st is coming up, I bought another ball, this time in the 2 ply to knit her Halcyon (which won't bloody well hyperlink), which arrived today. So just time to knit it.

2. Uni and Exams
The knitting however, is going slow. First of all this semester has been crazy busy, but right now it's exam time, so I should be studying more so than knititng. But it seems to be going well. I found out I got a HD for the midsemester Linguistics exam.

3. Moving in with Boy
Yes, it is finally happening! After exams, I will be sorting my stuff out and we will be moving in together.